Simon Cowell - Trans-gender ( Eben Pagan), you prepare a document, you actually privacy protect you, writing it down, formally, clearly, square, organize file, becasue if you seeing it, you feeling totally different.

Sometimes, just by imagining you have a a real document on the paper, you freak out. You die in the heart attack. Its not you cannot become. You cannot breath, at all.

If you put forward an intention, not just thinking about it. You can plan, you can write it down, you can collect what your own interests, as long as that is not damaged to yourself or other people. Legal stuffs.

You just like that feeling, so you try to put forth that feeling.

You write it down clearly, and you keep re-write. If you just doing that for one month preparation, on the 30th day you go out of the breath, I am telling you. Simon. Its not you want or you don't want. Your heart beating faster, you gonna really going forward those kisses, hugs, loves....you imagine you can handle that.

AT that time, you decide if you put forth that. You sit another 2 months, on whether you can breath or not. You set a few target guy's or girls.....your intention on that piece of paper.

Keep re-write that, you putting a correct order, because the more you seeing yourself organize, like elimination or add-on, the more you cannot breath, Simon.

That is how that is.

Nick is shorter than you. He is my height.

I know your height. Their girl height about Meghan Markle, the tallest its taller than her.

171cm, 174 cm.

The more you write it orderly. Meaning re-write, meaning poster on your own privacy walls and lock it. When you feeling safe. Those day, you might take 3 months to breath, Simon. Seriously. You lose weight or you gain weight? You might go near that person, and you cannot breath.....anything your thought your brain can handle on love. That is what you define the love games.