🍓🥮🌰🥗🍇 You will get nervous in the Student union or visiting UB, saying things, saying different things? 🍓🥮🌰🥗🍇

Sometimes a girl has to get up doing things alone. That alone things, you train yourself how to talk, how to fast speed reacts on the scene in front of you. That is younger people standing in front of you. You train yourself at the place where you are farmiliar. 

You need the girls to go to the bathroom?

You need someone goes with you to H & Block Tax offices?

Do you need someone accompany you to the car maintainese? 

Sometimes as a girl you need to live a stronger will, so one day you produce your offerspring, things needs to live on. You cannot breath doing this things, you develop a habit, you start to "identify" your fear, identify what you cannot breath on doing it without your dad, or husband before. 

You identify your shortcoming, that is half way of a cure, you realize what you are not capable in the past. You skillful to practice, to rehearsal, to confidently brings out some independence,  not just the authority of that M & T bank, because they say so, so you have the power? That is not true. 

You doing this with your family right beside, its one day you activity like living far way from your family.....the older age you become, the more fear, you confronting every talk to the real human, in the reaction of the talking skills, how to confront of another person. 

No one says you gonna get everything right the first try. You keep polish, keep notes, keep working on yourself. No matter in the end day nothing fruition, its you yourself self develop that tiny improvement, anything worth of that, something you do for yourself, its all what you can take with you in the end of the days.

That Beauty and the Beast video...

You are not ready to do that, don't do it. That is what I will say. You are not ready, don't act on that. You just step on that flowers in thousand pieces step step step..... You don't want Chris this or that, you tell him straight, you cannot take that. 

He will not listen, but you tell him the points. You cannot understand that part about the guys, it will not be forever you don't understand, its just right now you cannot understand it.

The guys are the touchy, more sensicle, wishing cuddling, snuggle, movies night, sofa night, one of those work in the same direction to keep happy world, happy family life all around. His family life around, not your family life around.

These parts you never can bend down, you never improve it, so don't.

A lot of things saying

Its you start to improve yourself, embedded more independence. Get more creative ideas to put that into your daily vocabulary or research resovior, you may not get something for as long as you try, but you keep a motion of that focus, you focus on yourself, not on Chris, not on your family. Its you. 

People will feel differently about that. You wish yourself well, you wish yourself happier, you doing things to keep improving yourself, you seeing the brighter side of the new life, you feel confident to confronting a situation. You practice more of the verbal words saying, directly at the people. How you figure it out your future? 

You have to enjoy doing something, to find that one thing you like to do, it will not be tomorrow, it may not be this year, but you keep a momentum you are walking on that path. Its a little scary, its a little bit frighten, but you put all that focus energy on yourself, to confronting something....you will feel you are uneasy with it.

Is that I always saying things in different way on the road?

You mean to whom? I don't talk to the human, I talked to the store might looks like they make money. I say the things they wish to hear, and know, yeah....

There are a lot of the useless people in this world, they have no money, to make a fancy of the friend gathering that is not constructive. Its all filled up on those road you saying making friends. I need to find the human looks like the right business, those don't waste my time just standing there talking.

Like the moment they finish talking, I know the answer? 

Yeah, just answer them what they wish to hear about. Its just causal talk. 

You damffound? A lot of people does those students ways, yeah....

You listen and you response.

If you revolve more academia ground, they are just as slow as the confronting people's talking arts. Aren't you supposed to be in a field, similar to that Wall Street? Bank...yeah! The money industry on math. Count your tolken stuffs.

Someone will tell you, you looks like a student. 

Being a student, you dress like a student, you think like a college graduate, you seems to be....like a student, you listen, you hear, but you have no response. 

Like your father your mother's no friends coming back? 

Talking like a colleague those friends, you say yes man, no man?

You don't sitting down asking something like ...replacing their jobs?